I Hate You

I hate you

No
That's not right

hate is a four letter word
too small to express

Loathe?
Despise?
closer to the depth of how I feel

No
that's not right

Hate is just a feeling
but not the truth

And I despise myself
for loving you

I wait
for my love to turn
to wilt away

I wait
for the arduous heat of hate
to ravage my soul
and make me whole
again

I wait
for love to cool
and for hate to become more than
thought or feeling
but my truth for you

I hate you

No
that's not right

I love you