fragments

You were my hopes and dreams
love incarnate
formed out of hidden tears and secret longings
you were the unspoken wishes i could not bear to say aloud
least I break the spell
wildest imaginings could not have perfected such want
or need
You were everything to me

this girl, fool of fools
my desire a fickle mistress
love captured
the ecstasy brief
and nothing gained
but bitter truth that I built you out of ether
with no concrete foundations to set my feet or rest my head
you were just a figment, a shadow
and yet I broke myself upon you
I broke myself into a thousand tiny fragments
and I called them
sorrow
shame
pity
pain
agony
anger
humiliation
humbling
deceit
despair
these fragments, with edges jagged
cutting me deeper
ribbon-ed and raw
stretch out alongside the shell of who I used to be