she builds her strength

theres nothing else to give
nothing left to say
worn down
washed away
ground to dust
reshaped into a lesser thing
and she cannot do this again
builds strength to walk away
before it all comes crashing down
and she is left battered and broken
and her heart beyond repair

her heart quite enjoys the beat of him
restless in its growing need
eager for the collision

foolish heart! always running rampant
never stopping to second guess
or take a breath
just headlong into the fray
all giddy hopes and anticipation
heart races
fears not
does not lie in trepidation
just embraces the moment

but fear sets itself to mind
whispers its secrets
points out and picks upon that deep seated insecurity
that perception, that love cannot stay here
love never stays
never actually is what it calls itself
and she second guesses the feeling
unable to trust her judgement or her hearts longing
she expects the destruction
the harsh implosion of her perceptions
and pulls away
readies herself for the fall out
and she builds the strength to walk away
as she knows she must
but her heart cries out
and she cannot listen to anything but that beat
and its all she knows and wants to know
it urges her to give her all to him, come what may
fear plots against her in ebbs and flows
but for the moment she builds her strength to stay