lost in this feeling

lost in this feeling
this feeling inside my chest
hollowed out
filled in
washed away
decayed
the nothingness that consumes absolute
slow beat
grind to a halt
bleed out

lost in this feeling
this feeling inside my head
dull ache
thoughts banished and billowing
return full in fury
trespass notices rise
mind erodes
shoulders stoop under weight of discontent
overburdened

lost in this feeling
my brokeness, rampant
fear anticipates, feeds, fosters
grows....dissipates
peace seeps in
steadies,
stays,
rises
hope for moment without sting
or festering wound
new day
fresh start
this could be it
renewal of strength and resolve
open eyes
lost in this feeling
this feeling that it is worth the fight