Truth

I leapt to conclusions
made you into something that wasn't
something you could never be
and I knew it
but kept that knowledge to myself
buried it deep
ignored all signs pointing to obvious

I was a hollow shell
desperate for something
and so along you came
and I built an edifice to you
etched your likeness to it
and lost myself there
small belief that you were perfection

when I first knew you
there was nothing there
nothing in it
just liking you for you
no foul play
or intentions beyond a simple conversation or two
then we met again
and things changed with the usual start;

a kiss

you kissed me there
overlooking shaded trees
distorted my perception
and breathed fresh life into me
for a moment
made me believe that you were somebody else
you were hearts desire
a dream to be fulfilled
but it crumbled down

I tore away the mask
found myself searching among the remnants
lost in the destruction
found the truth of you there
truth that you lay me destitute
and in the naked light of day I saw your form
hideous and grotesque
a sad illusion broken and barren

I held on and pushed away in same moment
then let go
the mirror shattered
and I left the shards where they fell
no more delusions
discarded your affections
embraced your rejection
no longer entranced
no longer ensnared
just back to before
free in the truth
the truth of you
the truth of me
the truth of what was not meant to be