Dream within a dream

my dream within a dream

imagination cut loose and painted a sky filled with bluest blue and rays that glistened like a golden promise
this place, as yet undefined
like a blank page or unwritten song
yet bore a name I had harbored within
and my imagination breathed fire and cut away all chains of discontent
and I fell into a sweet bliss of living in that moment

I awoke
and found myself lost in dust and shadows
silence permeated
weighted me down
pulled me into inky depths where time ceased to be
and everything I had loved had grown old and pale
and stunted by the darkness that had wound its way around my being
like a weed with a stranglehold on all of life's beauty
calmly I surveyed the mass
a vast landscape of destruction
melted into an abyss that had no end or point of being
and watched myself turn forever inward
reflecting on failures and falls and a myriad of other disasters that all led back to me
and I was consumed by the emptiness and bitter regret
sorrow became my name and faithful friend
and the dark and desolate land cradled my decaying soul til I was as close to nothing as something can get
my brokenness stretched out before me and scattered into the four winds so that I was no more
and I watched the world twist and turn and its beauty sour and life ebb and flow like an endless sea
and I awoke and found my heart had bled dry and no longer worked so I took it out and placed it on the mantlepiece to remind myself of these things