We Never Existed

I want you back but you never existed
An illusion
Or delusion
Smoke and mirrors
A vapor that can't be claimed
My imaginary romance
All too real
On this side
My side
Alone
You left me
But you were never really here to begin with
A figment of vain hopes
And foolish fantasies
Maybe I conjured you up out of the ether
Breathed life into that which never was
All the while a puppet on your string
You were the ocean
And I was a pale moon longing to stretch myself out over your waters
Let you bask in my love
You built my love up
And let it go
Like my love was always meant to be a broken rainbow
Or just broken
I want you back but you never existed
Not for me
For us
You were never real
Never true
Always hollow
And you took my love
Freely given
Yours for the taking
No holds barred
You took my love
And you disfigured it
Ripped the edges and burnt it to the ground
Till I could no longer recall love's beauty
And only pain filled my lungs and ears and soul
And I became shipwrecked upon the shore of your love
And my light burnt out
And I was left standing alone
In the darkness
In the cooling waters of your deceit
In the reality that we never really existed at all