the knot

invasive thoughts
abandon all reason
this solitude
self imposed
one track mind
twisting and turning
and all the while
ending up right back where we started
with this knot in the pit of my being
love knot
tied hard
over time seized into one
so i can't find an end or a beginning
just here
left with this knot
in the pit of my being
can't cut it out or let it go
its more a part of me than anything gone before
the weight of it wears me down
a burden freely carried
born to be expressed
and denied
but for secret moments
stolen for pleasure
and the knot
ever tightening
compressing against my chest
giving life
mocking my hope
urging it on
and this knot
in the pit of my being
a love knot
born of you
for you
it chokes out the light
all consuming
it tightens and constricts
til death us do part