My relentless fortitude
Fades into oblivion
Dissolves away the pain
Where sky and sea collide
Restart the day
And play it safe
And play it safe
Restart the day
Where sea and sky collide
Dissolves away the pain
Fades into oblivion
My relentless fortitude
Monday, April 18, 2016
NaPoWriMo - April 13th Where to from here?
Where to from here
That may be the actual question
It's not enough to be
Or not to be
Or do
Or do not
Where to from here
When you are down
And not quite out
Thinking about the 'what if's'
And could be's
And should have been...
Like it ain't already hard enough
Work too hard
For nothing
No gains
Nothing remains
Only pains
And my suffering is a failure that I push upon myself
Denying my joy as all possibilities suffocate
Left to my fate
To stay
To go
To waste away
Wallow in more years of hollow victories in being the
'Perfect, passionate person.'
And it doesn't mean much
Except everything
Watching others clamber up the carcass of those they willingly sacrifice in the gauntlet to get ahead
Wish my ego had that kind of tenacity and no sense of justice or 'do good to all.'
Then maybe I would join them
A lofty view won by turning people into commodities
A vision navigated by fear and circumvented by insecurity
While people like me, still attached to their integrity, wonder
Where to from here?
That may be the actual question
It's not enough to be
Or not to be
Or do
Or do not
Where to from here
When you are down
And not quite out
Thinking about the 'what if's'
And could be's
And should have been...
Like it ain't already hard enough
Work too hard
For nothing
No gains
Nothing remains
Only pains
And my suffering is a failure that I push upon myself
Denying my joy as all possibilities suffocate
Left to my fate
To stay
To go
To waste away
Wallow in more years of hollow victories in being the
'Perfect, passionate person.'
And it doesn't mean much
Except everything
Watching others clamber up the carcass of those they willingly sacrifice in the gauntlet to get ahead
Wish my ego had that kind of tenacity and no sense of justice or 'do good to all.'
Then maybe I would join them
A lofty view won by turning people into commodities
A vision navigated by fear and circumvented by insecurity
While people like me, still attached to their integrity, wonder
Where to from here?
NaPoWriMo- April 10th He Used to Call me on His Cell Phone
Somewhat to the tune of Drakes "Hotline Bling"
Lovingly mocking my darlings inability to remember where he set his phone down and the daily chaos that has since ensued looking for it. (Update: he brought a new one to tide him over because we, like most people, are used to living with the intimate convenience offered in the digital age.)
He used to call me on his cell phone
send me texts and pictures too
He used to call me on his cell phone
but now it's lost and he don't know what to do
Every evening was just the same
He would use it while he played a game
Or he'd watch a billion YouTube vids
or check out the latest Trade me bids
Yeah he used to call me on his cell phone
and I guess probably other people too
He used to call me on his cell phone
but now it's lost and he don't know what to do
We've searched through our entire house
but nothing stirred not even a mouse
We checked out the cars and garbage cans
but damn that phone it's like it grew legs and ran
He used to call me on his cell phone
but now it's lost legit
He used to call me on his cell phone
He should have put a ring on it
Lovingly mocking my darlings inability to remember where he set his phone down and the daily chaos that has since ensued looking for it. (Update: he brought a new one to tide him over because we, like most people, are used to living with the intimate convenience offered in the digital age.)
He used to call me on his cell phone
send me texts and pictures too
He used to call me on his cell phone
but now it's lost and he don't know what to do
Every evening was just the same
He would use it while he played a game
Or he'd watch a billion YouTube vids
or check out the latest Trade me bids
Yeah he used to call me on his cell phone
and I guess probably other people too
He used to call me on his cell phone
but now it's lost and he don't know what to do
We've searched through our entire house
but nothing stirred not even a mouse
We checked out the cars and garbage cans
but damn that phone it's like it grew legs and ran
He used to call me on his cell phone
but now it's lost legit
He used to call me on his cell phone
He should have put a ring on it
NaPoWriMo - April 17th - The man sleeps
The man sleeps
Gentle bellow into night
Gentle bellow into night
Rhythmic song pollutes the air
And I am jealous of his tune
My brain battles against the bliss of slumber
Like a leaky faucet that won't turn off
drip
drip
drip
and I lie here
Again
As usual
As always
Feeling that frantic need rise as I begin to clock watch
And the hours slip beyond my grasp
Still his cadence mocks my weary body
My mind cannot cease its discourse
A river runs through it
Drags me into its undertow
Submerged under the flow of memory in motion
I long to join his melody
A duet in harmony
If I could just get to sleep
NapoWriMo - April 16th - we are all observers
we are all observers
Opinions punctuated by experience
or conditioned to that train of thought
Is my belief my own
or is it just a trail blazed by suppositions and superstitions
we claim this edge of existence
but there are no absolution's that I am
or that this collective entity we named "humanity"
Is
Opinions punctuated by experience
or conditioned to that train of thought
Is my belief my own
or is it just a trail blazed by suppositions and superstitions
we claim this edge of existence
but there are no absolution's that I am
or that this collective entity we named "humanity"
Is
NaPoWriMo - April 15th - begin again
Faced with your passion
And it reignites the drive
And all that hopelessness you were feeling
Slides off to the side
And it's the thing that moves you
Stirs within
Swells
This reason for breathing
Begin again
And it reignites the drive
And all that hopelessness you were feeling
Slides off to the side
And it's the thing that moves you
Stirs within
Swells
This reason for breathing
Begin again
Thursday, April 14, 2016
NaPoWriMo - April 14th
It's palpable this feeling
Sticks to my bones, my heart, my mind
Surging even into dreams
With no care of illusions
Or thinly veiled pretense
No, even my dreams lack the shelter
A dream should afford
in the middle of the onslaught
of every day life
No hiding away from my feelings in the moment of REM
Lessons here
Circles back
A tired refrain
Stitched together out of emotionality and consent
Point and prods and pokes
"You listening yet?"
Sticks to my bones, my heart, my mind
Surging even into dreams
With no care of illusions
Or thinly veiled pretense
No, even my dreams lack the shelter
A dream should afford
in the middle of the onslaught
of every day life
No hiding away from my feelings in the moment of REM
Lessons here
Circles back
A tired refrain
Stitched together out of emotionality and consent
Point and prods and pokes
"You listening yet?"
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